Sad

I try to stay happy but feel overwhelmed...
God are you there? 
Please help

Forever

I know it's been forever..but kids are off from summer I have no time..
For nothing..
Even when I  go to the washroom my kids follow me..
I am overwhelmed by financial problems..
Everything at the same time..but I stay positive and optimistic..
Things are going get better... And I keep exercising... It's been two month now... Two more to go..
Love

Alive

Yes, I am still alive..what happened?
My older son finished school and is now on summer break..that means I have to entertain two Boys and keep them busy otherwise they will drive me 🍌 bananas.
Yes, I am still hanging there, exercising and watching my food, I haven't lost too many lbs but I lost cm along my waits and body..
That's make me feel happy 😊
Have a great day

Challenge

Today I did a new training.. Higher level one..I have been postponing it.. And finally did it..
I sweated like a dog, but it is so worth it..
I'm proud of myself..

Following by eggs and tomatoes for breakfast...
Have a nice day

Still here

I am still alive just getting ready for my training, today is called secret.
Enjoy

Days..

What a terrible day yesterday.. I dont even want to think about it..
Today is the brand new day...and it will be a good one...
Training done,breakfast eaten, now waiting for baby to wake up and heading to baby class..some socializing required... Yes..much needed..

How I feel now...

Exhausted... But happy

Active...active...active

Hello there,
Weekend passed by nicely some good quality time.
Today is Monday, I started with my usual routine: lemon water, then skalpel 2 training and some whole grain toasts with eggs and my favourite coffee..
After morning work out, I head out to... Yes..another work out...Haha...this  time is a bootcamp for mothers with babies in the strollers...
Yep.
That was fun.....i Was sweating like crazy..and that humid today did not help...my son actually enjoyed me jogging and pushing the stroller while he just chilled... And probably wondered: why are we in such a rush...Haha
Running uphill and downhill..
And then some exercise on mat on the grass...with babies out...and stretching..My favourite part..

Today, I challenged myself by doing both mg exercise and bootcamp..
I did it...you can too..

Craziness

What a crazy days..first apparent tornado in milton, on and of course nothing happened...but tv, radio everyone was going crazy...
Then visit at work...which I am going back to soon..such a weird feeling..
And then visit at friends house to see a little baby girl, who was just born..so precious and so little...5 lbs. First time I was holding such a small baby...
And let's not forget about my morning training, because I am ambitious I decided to go to a higher level...skalpel 2
It is shorter than first one..only 20 min.
I thought.
Piece of cake....yeah I was soooo wrong..j am dying today...so sore..my muscles hurt...
Massage much needed...

Day

Yesterday was tough..
But it feels better...inside I feel lighter...
Relieved 😌....
Today, it is a relaxing day and evening yoga... Can't wait.

Healing..

So we just finished a long talk about our relationship... I wrote down on a piece of paper everything that I want him to change...the list was long.. But it's worth a trial.. Because deeply in my heart I love him......
Goodnight

Lack of respect

I hate my husband.. When he yells..disrespect me.. At all times...I hate him

Next day

It is Tuesday. Morning was fun at the baby class playing with jello 😃😃😃
And now while baby sleeping,.just relaxing trying to watch some show online but od course internet is freezing...Why does it always happen when I try to watch something?? Annoying
MORNING, also filled by work out and healthy meals.

Rainy monday

Weekend passed..  With a great weather.
And now it is Monday..
I just finished my training and had my breakfast with coffee..
I felt it today..couple days break because of the weekend..make a big difference..
Since it is raining and it is dark, maybe naps will be longer today..

Hard day

Did you ever feel like walking out from your relationship and not come back...i did today.....
It is pretty scary....

Relax

After yesterday yoga, I feel so relaxed and calm...Let's see how long it will last..Haha
Today was relaxing day...no.exercise..
Instead I took a nap...nice too,.right?
Meals eaten well, eggs, fish and.chicken for diner...yummy
I didn't even realize that I had no carbs today...interesting
Tomorrow, it is Pa Day, both kids home...lovely...time to play..

Mommy struggle

I love my kids to death.. But sometimes they drive me crazy...
My 4 year old...how many times did I tell him to pee to the toilet...not on it.. Or around it...so gross..I am tired of pee smell in my washroom... 😞
My 8 months old..learn how to scream...and does it all day long 😱..
Increasing volume when he really wants something ...my ears are going to explode 😫😫😫!!!!
My hot yoga, please come earlier ..I need you badly tonight!!!!!!!!
In 2 hours...
I have to survive

Day 3 of " diet and exercise"

Hello,

Third day is here, I did 3 times a week !!!Yupi !!
Fells great!  And later on in the evening: HOT YOGA-my favourite @Milton, ON
This is where, I really get my butt sweat .. :)))))

The weather is nice and energy is back.
So my meals today:

Breakfast

• 2 whole-wheat toasts with avocado and tomato 
• Cottage cheese 
• Coffee 

Lunch 

• 2 pieces of pork fried
• rice 
• boiled corn 
• glass of fruit juice 
• green tea 

PM Snack

• strawberries 
• Activia yogurt 

Dinner 

• Chicken noodle soup 
• Activia yogurt 
• Green tea 

Day 2 of "diet" and exercise

So after day one, I feel great! I am not even sore...feels amazing 

I started the day with the lemon water.

Following "Skalpel" training, and my yummy breakfast

Breakfast

• Two hard boiled eggs
• Half of tomato with green onions
• Coffee with milk and sugar 

Lunch

• Two whole-what toast with turkey breast 
• Cottage cheese with radish and green onion and once scoop  of Greek yogurt and salt and pepper for better taste 
• Green tea

Snack pm

• Strawberries and Activia Yogurt 

Dinner

• Pasta with pork ground meat
• Cesear salad 
• Green tea 

Sharing my meals, I am not following any diet, just eating what I prepare and buy for my family in the weekly groceries, as I do not want to spend more money...limited budget ...

Meals

OK, so I started the day by drinking glass of water with  lemon juice since it has lots of benefits, check the link below:

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/11-benefits-lemon-water-you-didnt-know-about.html

Before my workout I had one banana, I cant really exercise on empty stomach...
I put my baby for nap and now it is my time ...

My workout was called: "Skalpel" by Ewa Chodakowska I found on-line. It is 45 minutes which is reasonable timing and it was a combination of working on your whole body while focusing on belly... yeah .. that  is what I need...

My breakfast:

• 2 hard boiled eggs and 3 slices of smoked turkey breast 
• Coffee with sugar (I know but I have to have sugar, otherwise it tastes gross) with milk (switched from cream :))

Water, water all day long..at least 2 litres...

My lunch:

• 2 whole wheat toast with avocado and tomato, see picture, so goood...

Green tea after lunch, aiming to drink green tea 3 times a day and limit coffee to once a day..let's see if I manage :))

My pm snack:

• Grapes and Activia yogurt 

My dinner

• Boiled broccoli with feta cheese (I probably should skip the feta but I love it too much , weak me :)
• Green tea 

TOTAL CALORIES CONSUMED: 903 calories! What that's it?

Today is the day to start a new life..

Yes, today is the day to start a new life...
what do I mean?? Well, I am 31, have two kids, the baby is now 8 months old...and I pretty much look 6 months pregnant now..yes,..I do...
I never gained weight during my pregnancies but maternity leave is a killer..
sweets, carbs..lots of bread( I am polish and bread is my BIG weakness..., etc.
Therefore, my belly keeps growing and I have a big belly, seriously I look at myself and I look pregnant, so I decided:
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...
I don't want to have a belly, soon I am going back to work and I want people to say: WOW..you look great ! vs I know how hard is to loose weight after babies..
NO NO NO
Today, is the day I start to change my life.. for better..
But also, have to be realistic at the same time, haha so my plan is as follows:

1. Exercise with videos by Ewa Chodakowska(great polish trainer) 3 times X per week and once a week; hot yoga, yes I love it..going to a studio in Milton, ON ..amazing..

These are pictures of my belly, I know it is disgusting..
Don't I look pregnant, so bad..

2. Diet, actually not really a diet, since I have been there, done this (after you go back to normal food, the weight comes back even with high protein diets) , so lets just say I am going to watch what I eat, so simple rules: no sweets (I love, love sweets, so it will be hard, why do I feel like piece of chocolate every time I have a coffee?! ;) limited carbs, whole wheat bread only, yes, maybe I should eliminate carbs, but I cant..again I am bring realistic.. and alcohol weekends only.. yes i Love to have a drink after tough day just to relax, no more, weekends only and wine only, since it is one of the less calories alcohol...


PLEASE, keep your finger crossed! I give myself 10 weeks challenge...
Stay with me, next post on my first day exercises and meals...

Changes

Tomorrow is a big day..
I am going to change my life.

Details tomorrow..

Scam everywhere

So, I have been trying to find a work from home opportunity.. And it is just so annoying!!  Every research I do on the company, shows it is a scam..
So discouraging!!
I just Want to make some extra money...while home..

No, it can't be easy,  life sucks

What happened??

I know it has been a while?  All of the sudden I lost track of time and had no time for nothing..being sick couple of weeks too...terrible horrible month.
APRIL please end!!

Changes...

So, I have this feeling that something is cooking..
I am not sure what yet....I hope that is good and it might be related to the resume I just sent for manager's position..
It will be great to have a mommy as a manager?
I want my kids to be proud of me.. and do my best to make sure I did my part..
Being a mother is enough it is but if you can and want to add more, why not..
It is worth a trial..

Sleep training

I have been doing my research, did networking and it is not like it is my first child... But they say: every child is different and that's very truth.
So we are on the sleep training day 2@):- with no pacifier and lengthening naps and so far so good..that means....
mommy is  getting more sleep..
..is happier and slowly stops looking less like zombie..and more like a woman...
Long way to go but thumbs ⤴ up..

Tough times.

It has been busy past few days... I had my birthday... 
My husband has forgotten but it is all good because my 4 year old reminded him....LOL
We are preparing for my younger son's baptism... So it has been busy.
Plus he had just discovered his voice and learn how to scream...God help me... My ears want to explode.. He is so loud LOL
And of course never ending sleep deprivation.. Him weakening for whatever reason... Teething perhaps??..  But mommy needs to sleep... God help me.
.

Difficult questions

So another day, my 4 year old son asks me:" how do girls pee? "
I was trying to quickly come up with a smart answer not to sound stupid but smart. So I sad:" girls do it differently, they have to sit". .and of course that answer did not satisfy him and says:" I know that but how if they don't have peepee..:-)
Let's the fun begin..
And this morning while getting ready to school..  He says:" mommy, I don't have a girlfriend yet..." yet..?! I  said baby, you are only 4 years old...you have plenty of time..and then I asked:" does any of your friend have a girlfriend?! (hoping he says no)..
He answers :" no, but I want to have one..."
OMG...

Did my wish come true?

Remember my wish for Valentines?
My dear lovely hubby listened and I got just like I wanted champagne, chocolate and strawberries...  Hmmm
So ladies,once again do not think that your loved ones will know what you want...
You have to tell them. Give them clues...
That's the only way...

Sleep deprivation....

If you are thinking of putting your kids to bed at a different time than usual, BAD idea!!!
That's what I did yesterday...so I decided to go and see my older one dancing Zumba and we skipped younger one bed time. I am thinking or half an hour, no big deal...
I was so wrong!!!It took him forever to fall asleep, and then for whatever reason he was up at 12, 3, and up and ready for a day at 5 AM.
I look: let' s say: it is not my best day, I don't feel like make up either....
I  don't know where I am getting the energy from... to take care of him and my older one when he is back from school...maybe from the air...

My plans today is a meeting with local moms and swimming with the little one, for the first time.
It is scheduled in the evening, so his bedtime is gonna get delayed again...brrrrr

Keeping kids busy..during winter

I am super excited to start swimming classes with my 4 months old, parent and tot tomorrow!!

My older one-4 Years has been swimming forever and is great at this.
It is so important to encourage kids to play with water.
It is a life lesson -that one day can save their life's.
I never understand parents that are scared to send their kids to swimming.......
 how else are they supposed to learn?????
My older one has been swimming since about 4 months too and now is easily passing every new stage of swimming,... so proud of him..

How to keep kids busy during winter?
That is certainly a challenge..especially when you have active boys like me:)

I have my ways:

• swimming, as mentioned above
• library
• home depot workshops:once a month-my 4 years old LOVES construction related activities !
• dance classes: it is excellent to burn energy for active boys (4 years +)
• local moms groups and events

Little, but something to keep them entertain and me busy.

One thing  for sure, I want my kids to be active not couch potatoes, so I try my best..

New YEAR resolution

So with a NEW Year I decided to lose some weight.  I know how bad it sounds..
But I have been doing pretty good job...so far 15lbs down few more to go
I swear after I am done I am not going to look at the chicken, turkey and cottage cheese for a very long time...... :-P
So my dear lovely son asks me one day(noticing that my food is different than his)... " mommy when I will be big as you, will I have to go on diet too????.
I LOVE kids:-*

F for Friday, W for weekend

Here it is- weekend is just around the corner ...
So, any big plans?
Let's see-grocery, laundry, cleaning.... yeah that a woman's life but hold on good things are coming up  :) I am having a night out on the 15th for :"Fifty shades..."movie. Can not wait. 

Although the theatre is 5 minutes away but still I will be out without kids and that is BIG. 

Good story in the news today:
 Unemployment rate went down: great! That is always an interesting topic, how do they come up with these stats?

Have a great weekend everyone and enjoy a snow :)

Valentine's coming....

So, I have been married for...how may years,,,oh yeah..it will be 11 years !!!!!!!!what? Time flies.
After all these years I still get excited about Valentines;
Since we have 2 kids and no one really to babysit, romantic dinner is out of picture...
I know that guys do not have memory for dates and holidays so I gently reminded my husband:
"Baby, you know Valentines is coming, we cant really go out I would be very happy with just chocolate fountain and strawberries" ( I have such a craving for it ... and no I am not pregnant :))
and he goes:"Really?Do you want to celebrate this commercial holiday, you know I love you."
YES, YES, YES I want to celebrate Valentines and I want my chocolate fountain and strawberries!!!!!

My boys

So my little one-J is 4 months, adorable, happy, active baby boy.
These days he has a cold..poor baby 
He can't breathe because his nose is stuff and wakes up every 2 hours..and wakes me up and my husband..these days is hard..
beauty of motherhood
Luckily, I am on mat leave, otherwise I will not be able to function...
All I have to do is to get up, get my older one ready and drop him off to school..
I love these days no work, no make up needed....
I see other moms with their little ones dropping of their kids too and we all look the same, like zombies, no make up,tired eyes, we do not even have to talk to each other, 
we will look and we know-tough night!!

My older one-D is 4 years and he started JK last September.
He is a super active, happy, smart and bright boy. Very talkative... 
He reached a stage when asks so many questions, most of them starting with WHY..
:))))))))))))))
Yep, and sometimes I just want to say because but I cant , he looks at me with his big eyes waiting for the full answer and if it is too short another why comes in....

Hello

Hello
It is me.

• Wife,
•  Mother of 2 boys, 
• Mommy blogger (just starting :)) 
• Independent Consultant(children books) 
•  Career Advisor/ Resume writer
• Sister
• Friend  

Yep.. it is a lot but we only have one life and I like it busy